GrimmTail

I'm not leaving
I've been here to fucking long to just up and leave

So I'll be updating this with other places to find me

Twitter - TooTired4Sleep

Tumblr - King-Satanick

Toyhou.se - GrimmTail

Weasyl - GrimmKaiju

FurAffinity - (TBA)

YouTube - Grimm Scribbles

I will add more as I make more

Please note that my twitter and tumblr are not art-exclusive and my posting on them is relatively slow
I will be looking into making art-exclusive ones

Edit;;;
From an essential worker...
#STAYTHEFUCKHOME
If you're protesting the fucking lockdowns 
Go sit the hell down you arrogant finite carbon-based lifeform and shut the fuck up
Your haircut or whatever is not more important than peoples' lives you fuck trumpets


hey so

I've kinda been on a sorta downward spiral mentally?

I'm still working during the pandemic as my kindercare center is being used as one of the 3 open in a rather large area. Along with taking on the duty of doing schoolwork with the kids, we also have our own curriculum to take care of and a bunch of new kids who have been thrust into an unfamiliar environment without their normal teachers or groups of friends. So they're stressed out. It feels like our policies are constantly changing. Parents/Guardians are not allowed to come into the center so we have to escort kids to and from their classrooms, we are required to masks and since our ac units are cruddy at best its very easy to overheat, i don't know about you but trying to get kids to do schoolwork is like trying to herd cats and we have to use our cleaning crap so much that my hands are cracking.

Not to mention
we've had to send a few kids home early because they've attacked other kids or teachers
and I myself had to call CPS due to abuse suspicions so we're now dealing with that investigation

We're also low-staffed due to many of our teachers opting out of work due to exposure scares or otherwise worry about their family (which don't get me wrong, i understand completely, i am not at all faulting them)

on top of all this
im tired as fuck because im not sleeping well at all because of the stress
im scared for my mother, she's very at-risk because of her job and while she's managing to stay calm through it (or at least putting up a front), my brother and I are not. Her severe asthma and auto-immune disorder would likely make COVID very much fatal to her. My brother's asthma makes that a possibility for him too.

So I'm wound up with anxiety.

and i know its been awhile but im still not over the death of my grandfather; we weren't able to attend his burial-at-sea due to rules in place by the Navy and while i understand, it still very much hurts. 

I'm also sad over not being able to see my grandma because of the quarantine stuff in place.

I'm very fucking tired and getting worse.
Apologies for any delays and such, I'm trying.

My grandfather just passed away about an hour ago.

Leave me alone.

Ahh ok
I think I can type now

I am...very not ok right now.

Last week, my family made the decision to move my grandpa to hospice care. He is not doing well. His Parkinson's disease and dementia is getting worse and now he's peeing blood.
Which is never a good sign, doctors aren't sure if its cancer or kidney failure but because of his other health problems, operating and/or medication is not a viable option.
So we're looking at weeks, maybe months if we're lucky, till he passes.

On top of this
We put my dog Maizy to sleep on Saturday.
And oh my gods, it fucking hurts, my dog Kringle is still looking around the house for her. I keep looking into my brother's room expecting to see her
But she's gone. She isn't coming back, my brother is taking the hardest I think.
The vets were nice enough to take her bed with her. We get her ashes back this coming saturday.

I feel really low right now.
I am open to talking, I'm just not going to guarantee how fast I'll be with replying.
Art is a good distraction, so...hopefully, I'll be getting stuff done.

Sorry